Desperate for YOU!

In the light of the many things that happened these past few weeks,I didn't have much time at all to update this blog. The past weeks (or was it months?) has been so crazy. My FYP (Final Year Project) thesis wasn't really running smoothly, my studies wasn't that good and everything had just been too much for me that I wasn't even keeping my quiet time with God regularly. I also put everything concerning my business on hold just so that I can get a grip of everything that's happening. 

With so much happening, there was an emptiness that is slowly gripping my heart. I felt desperate for something, and somehow nothing I did could fill that void. I thought it was maybe I felt a need to perform in my studies, or maybe I was a bit lonely & so was desperate for girlfriend (don't laugh!) or maybe I was just too bored. I tried to find out the answer,and with that I just felt more "empty" inside. I've noticed I have been "down" more often this semester. I was really lost and needed someone there. I felt desperate for someone to know me for who I am.

I now know that "void" that is inside my heart is a cry of desperation for Jesus. I know that my heart longs to experience Him again in such a way that it was as if I'm spending time with Him everyday. It's so hard sometimes to know that I am desperate for Him and yet don't know how to get back to Him. Something as simple as spending time with Him suddenly seemed so mundane and "dry".

The reason that I am writing this is to let you know that you are not alone if you feel like you're slowly drawing away from God. I am desperate for Him and I know some of you are too! Don't rely on your own strength. Don't wait anymore. You can just surrender everything to God and cry out,"I am desperate for You!"

But if from there you seek the LORD your God, you will find him if you seek him with all your heart and with all your soul. (Deuteronomy 4:29)