My 20th with Jayesslee!!

It was my 20th birthday 2 days ago & I would say that I've been blessed with so so SO much this year! I just wanna thank God for EVERYTHING that He has done in my life. He has blessed me with not only the things that I need,but by His grace the things that I want. I don't usually want things for myself very badly. But this year when I heard that Janice & Sonia a.k.a Jayesslee were coming to Malaysia & the concert was on my BIRTHDAY, it was for the first time ever that I wanted to go for a concert so badly that I actually spent money to go!! LOL! Just wanna thank God for VERY supportive friends who helped me so much to win a photo contest on FB to be able to attend Jayesslee's press conference. 650++ likes in just 4 days!! Wow,you guys are just incredible! 


I went to the Curve  for Jayesslee's photograph session on the 21st,one day before the concert. I got my guitar signed by them! Woohoo! Was incredibly nervous when I saw them that I didn't know what to say. Everything went so fast I forgot to ask to take a picture until the next person came in. LOL! Well there was one thing that I realized after that night. Although I was super happy getting to meet them and getting my guitar signed, I felt some feeling of "emptiness" in my heart still. 


I realized that I felt "empty" inside because all I was merely another fan to them. I love them not just because they're talented but because they've touched my life when I was once very very spiritually & emotionally down. God used them to impact my life & got back on track with Him. However, I have not made any impact whatsoever in their lives. My life has not encouraged them not impacted them the very least. That was when I realized that I had to share my life's story with them in hopes that I can at least be a little blessing to them. I made them a card(a simple one cuz it was so last minute.LOL) & 2 strawberry lollies. I wanted to pass it to them right after the press conference but the crew there asked me to go out since I wasn't from 8tv. So,I passed them to a guy named Leonard (who didn't see me raise my hand when I wanted to ask them a question.LOL,he felt bad about it. Don't worry I forgive u.haha!!).


The concert the next day was AWESOME! They were better LIVE than they were on their videos. The bold sharing of Jesus in the concert was AMAZING too!! I was impacted in a way through their concert. TODAY, just when I woke up, I just felt a strong urge to be a BIG influence in the lives of MILLIONS. Of course I've wanted to be a speaker like Nick Vujicic & share about the HOPE that is in Jesus, but I never considered the possibility of me touching millions. Janice & Sonia's coming here to Malaysia have me decide to do the best that I can by His grace & aim to go around the WORLD sharing about His love & how He has changed my life! 


I feel a bit sad that I did not use the many chances that I had to talk to them or make an impact in their lives. Mostly because I was too shy when there were just so many people just trying to get to them. I stayed at the corner instead. But I have faith that I'm gonna meet them again next time & that time I'm gonna share my life personally with them. 

Thanks to everybody who chipped in for this lovely birthday gift! sorry can't mention all of u here cuz some of ur writings are just too "fancy" I can't read your names. LOL!! Thanks so much tho!! Love you all!!^^

Jayesslee autograph session- 21st Oct

Janice asking what guitar I'm using. Tanglewood, baby!! yeah!! ^^

Janice & Sonia's signature on my guitar!! Wooohooo!!^^

Concert day/My birthday!!- 22nd Oct 

Met some new friends. This is Joel Wong,my main competitor for a photo contest on FB by Advertlets to win Jayesslee's press conference permit!! Nice guy. Great to finally meet you in person bro! ;)

Joern, Jo Wie & Marianne,whom I met in the concert. Goods friends tho we just met!! Appreciate each one of you!!^^

Janice, with the coolest shaker in the world. XD

Sonia, with her Breedlove guitar. =)

Got another signed T-shirt on top of my bday present, thanks to the host of the night, Jin from Hitz.fm!! Wooohooo!!^^

Janice & Sonia, hope to see you both again one day! The next time, I'd love to share my life personally with the both of you. For now,I pray that you've been blessed by my sharing in the card. You've truly made my birthday the most memorable one so far. But the greatest present this year wasn't that. The greatest birthday gift that I can get this year, is to know that I have encouraged the both of you,even in the slightest way. I really do hope so you both are. Keep it up girls. Show the world that there is HOPE in Jesus Christ our LORD and SAVIOUR! Til' we meet again, jumpa lagi!! God bless =)

You are LOVED!!

"...Everyone wants to be understood....Everyone wants to be loved. Don't give up, because..you...are...LOVED."

"You Are Loved(Don't Give Up)"- Josh Groban 

It's been quite some time since I've encountered this feeling. The feeling that tells me that I don't belong there. The feeling that tells me that they don't want me there. To feel like a burden. Ever since I was a boy,I've been struggling with this issue. I thought that now that I've grown up, it won't hurt as much anymore. It doesn't seem the case for me.

Everyone has an innate desire to be accepted...to be understood...to be loved. It's not a good feeling at all when someone keeps hinting to you that you are not wanted there. It DEVASTATES me. Sometimes I'd think to myself, "Maybe it's better if I stop trusting people. It's better if I don't rely on others. Maybe I should stop getting too close to others. Everything would be less painful if I just give up on people." 

And that may be what you are thinking right now. It's not wrong to feel like giving up on trusting people. I just felt like that yesterday! It just mean that you and I are humans. It's normal to tend to think that way. The important thing is NOT to be convinced by it. Every time I start to convince myself that people are not trustworthy, that I am a burden, that I should give up on people, Jesus touches my heart & tells me "Don't give up. You are LOVED. Even if the whole world abandons you, I will NOT." 

So,if you are trying to convince yourself that you are unloved & to give up on trusting people, think again. JESUS is telling you now that YOU ARE LOVED. As humans we are not perfect,so me may hurt one another. But every time that I thought I should give up on trusting people,God uses the brothers & sisters around me to remind me that I am loved. I want to tell u that because Jesus loves you, I LOVE YOU too..So,don't give up...You are LOVED. 

p/s: Just wanna wish Sue Jane Happy Birthday again! I thank God for yesterday. If it wasn't for you,and Lisa & ALL the wonderful people I met yesterday, I'd still be trying to convince myself of that thought. SO, thank God for all of you...

(You haven't give me the pics frm ytd yet...so i just stole one from ur FB..hahaha!!)

It's also the birthday of a good brother of mine. Gan Kel Vin!! Happy Birthday!!! A brother that helped me a lot & never once complained. I really thank God for you. Sorry I couldn't be there this week. 

19 years of Blessings & counting...

I just wanna thank all those who wished me Happy Birthday, especially Uncle Moon & the family that took the effort of buying a cake & celebrating for me & my housemates who sang a birthday song for me. I'm now 19 years old (I know I'm OLD)!! 


I've never had this thought before but this time, I just wondered why are birthdays so special to me (and to almost everyone on earth)? Almost everyone will be excited when their birthday comes (except those who hate being a year OLDER). To me, I used to look forward to the gifts, the celebrations & most of all the attention, especially if it's from the ones I care the most. Somehow, my birthday is the only day of the year that I feel...SPECIAL. 


This year, I somehow have a different perspective. Other than being "special" on my birthday, most of all my birthday means that I've experienced yet another year of God's abundant blessings. From the very day I was born until this very moment, I've lived solely on His blessings, His grace & His love; even during all the years that I never knew Him. Of course I still love the gifts, the celebrations & the wishes from my friends & family, but this time around, I want to remember my birthday as a commemoration of another year of living in the BLESSINGS of my Heavenly Father. Everything else falls second place to that. 


So, I just want to thank those of you who remembered my birthday, and for those who didn't, it's okay. It's not like you can remember everyone's birthday, right? I feel special because I know I am loved & most of all, I've been experiencing 19 years of blessings & counting...


P.S: Also, Happy Birthday  to Xin Xin(21st Oct), Leong Eng & Loon Tat(22nd Oct), Eu-Gene & Daniel Phang (23rd Oct)...GOD bless you all =)
The one I waited for didn't come =(. Nah Never mind ;)

Happy Birthday Malaysia!! (To Zanne, Jordan & Sarah too^^)

A friend of mine said, and I quote, "Back when we were younger, the "RACE" issue was about who can run the fastest."

It is very true what he said. I could remember when I was younger, I don't remember having the "race issue" with any of my friends in school. I grew up in a national school, with lots of Malay and Indian friends & many of them were my best friends. Back then, we just seem to look at people as equals & the same. Sounds naive huh? Maybe being naive is not a BAD thing after all.

As I grew up, I start to see lots of stuff I've never thought of before about other races. All the commotion about the "race issue" by adults around me slowly but definitely causes a great impact in the nation. I see lots of my Chinese friends dreaming of leaving this country & start a better life overseas, away from this "unfair" country. All of a sudden, Malaysia doesn't seem to be as "perfect" as I've always thought it was when I was younger.

Sounds depressing? Well, I still BELIEVE that there is HOPE for MALAYSIA. Little gestures of kindness by people, the friendships between little children without a care about their races, & most of all, God's promises secures my faith in a better future for Malaysia. I truly believe that one day, we'll be able to see a Malaysia that is like how we see it when we were younger.

I have faith that as a Christian, if I, along with the rest of my brothers & sisters in Christ, would humble ourselves & SEEK His face, HE will surely come & heal OUR land. So, let's continue to have faith in this country that God has blessed us with. Be blessed, & have a HAPPY MERDEKA!!!

P.S: Happy Birthday to some of my friends too. A very Blessed Birthday to Zanne (on the 29th) & our Merdeka babies, Jordan & Sarah. Be blessed & continue to make a difference in this country with the testimony of LOVE that God has blessed EACH of YOU with. Also, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MALAYSIA!!

-> HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU GUYS...LOVE U ALL =)