We only have TODAY

"Go ahead and be the light TODAY, because tomorrow is not guaranteed."

-Sonia Lee (Jayesslee)

No one in this world, however rich or powerful he or she may be, can claim that they have tomorrow in their hands. It doesn't matter who we are, none of us can guarantee that we can live past today. Things just happen & nowadays we see bad things happening so suddenly to people whose time are not supposed to come yet. 

When someone knows when he/she is going to die, everything falls into the perspective of what is most important. The most important thing for me is probably to touch lives for God & make a lasting impact in the world with my presence. If I want to be remembered for anything that I did, I want to be remembered for my ability to love. That's why I want to try my best in being a person who loves the people around me, however bad I am at it. 

Mordecai said to Queen Esther, "For if you remain silent at this time, relief and deliverance for the Jews will arise from another place, but you and your father’s family will perish. And who knows but that you have come to your royal position for such a time as this?” (Esther 4:14). I know that I am destined to impact lives, not only that, I was placed where I am & how I was for such a time as this. If I do not live according to the purpose I was called, then God can raise someone else from another place and I will have just lived a meaningless life. 

So, I will remind myself as many times as possible to be the light TODAY, for I do not know what may happen tomorrow. If we all live this way, for such a time as this, how can we not SHINE for Jesus the way we are meant to? So say what you need to say to your loved one TODAY, approach that lonely person in your class TODAY, and live TODAY like there is no tomorrow! After all, we only have today- one today at a time ;)

Why? Why? WHY??

A dedication to someone who inspired this post. One day,everything will seem clear. Then you will see that God's plan is to use your life for His glory ;)

"Why?" That is probably one of my most asked questions of all time. "Why is life so challenging at times? God if you are good, why can't be born normal like everybody else? Why must I go through the pain that I am experiencing now? WHY ME?" These are all questions that had went through my mind before. I have my own sets of why's in my life, and most of us do too. The feelings that we have to go through, the pain that we can't seem to bear, or even the fears about the things we are unsure of.  Sometimes, we can only ask "Why...?". 


There are still many things that I still don't understand in life. I can't stand in place of God to answer all the "why's", not even the "why's" in my own life. But through experience, I know for sure that God has plans- plans to prosper us no to harm us, plans to give us HOPE and a FUTURE. "But why must I go through emotional pains, or poverty, or even a fail in finals for God to give me hope and a future?" 


I can't know the specific reasons for God to let you go through what you are going through now, but one thing I am sure of -that is God is planning to use all the things in your life to help you see Him clearer, and for you to use it to helps others SEE too. 


Do you think the small things you face is too insignificant for God not to use it for His glory? Definitely not! How can someone who has not experienced hurt in relationships empathize with a person who just broke up with his girlfriend? Or can a person who gets straight A's all the time comfort a person who just failed his mid-term paper? 


Every hurt, hardship or question that you experience, however small or common it may seem, God has BIGGER plans for it. I am a testifier of that! I understand how people feel when they are lonely because I've felt it. I know how hard it is to overcome challenges, but I overcame! In the midst of finding the answer to my "why's", I found something more- a purpose. To help others see that in the midst of their "why's", there is HOPE in Jesus, the Christ!


"You intended to harm me, but God intended for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives." (Genesis 50:20)

POWER in Weakness

Being weak is probably one of the last things anyone of us would want to be. Most of us like people who are strong figures- dependable, stable and strong. I love superheroes (yea,my favourite is Batman & Spiderman) and superheroes are not well-known for their weaknesses.Superman is well-known for his super strength,X-ray vision and his many other super abilities, NOT for his weakness towards Kryptonite. That's why kids (and many of us adults still) love superheroes so much. There's just that small part in us that imagines ourselves being the hero, saving the world, protecting the ones we love. People always admire people who are strong. No one finds glory in being weak. 


And I guess for me, that is the answer! No one finds glory in being weak. So that when I overcome in my weakest times, no one can get any glory but Jesus alone! I've always tried to be strong, or at least appear to be. I am already physically challenged. Others around me can do things I can't. They can be helpful to others while I always felt useless when I was younger during my school years. 


I've overcome many challenges in my weakest times, and every time I am the victor, it was simply because I found strength in Jesus. The time that you see me being "strong"? Well, those were the times Jesus carried me in His arms! Whatever you've seen in my life so far is only the beginning. One day a challenge will come, so BIG that no one can deny that it is God that overcame,not me. 


You don't have to be Superman all the time. It's okay to be a normal human being every once in a while, you know? And humans get weak. Then will you see that there is POWER in WEAKNESS, simply because it's in your weakest hour, that God's strength shines most in your life. People will your life & they will praise God for who He is!  "...For when I am weak, then I am strong." (2 Corinthians 12:10)


POWERED BY JESUS
"I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength." (Philippians 4:13)

Fingerprints of God

I just finished watching a movie a few weeks back, called "Soul Surfer". An excellent movie on the real life story of a surfer named Bethany Hamilton who lost her left arm from a shark bite while she was surfing one day. Despite all odds, she struggled through various challenges trying to re-learn how to surf with only one arm & eventually fulfilled her dream to compete in the arena as a pro-surfer. 


I believe that in everyone, lies the potential to overcome struggles in life that simply amazes everyone. I hope to be able to say that my life, too, is one that overcomes the odds. When I was younger, I didn't find any "inspiring" purpose of overcoming the challenges of being born with brittle bones. I overcame challenges because all I knew was that I needed to survive. It wasn't like I was doing it for anyone else other than myself. 


Now that I've put my faith in Jesus, I knew exactly why I overcame those challenges in the first place. It wasn't merely for me to survive. No, I believe sincerely in my heart that there is a reason that goes far greater than that. I believe that my life & all the struggles that come along with it are there for me to show the Maker that created me, and the plans that He has for me. 


I believe that in all that I've been through, the fingerprints of God are all over it. I believe that every challenges and hardship that comes my may is an opportunity for me to show the places that God has left His fingerprints on. 


Each one of us are His masterpiece! The ones that He moulded & sculpted with His own hands. He leaves His fingerprints where He touched us and simply by showing that to the world, lives can be changed, spirits can be encouraged, and hearts renewed. You are not very much different from me, nor Bethany Hamilton- in the fact that regardless of how big or how small the challenges that you've faced, you too are a display of the fingerprints of God. 

The movie "Soul Surfer",starring Anna Sophia Robb.

Bethany Hamilton,  in action after the shark attack.

Bethany Hamilton, the real deal.

Never say that your life is worthless, for you cannot measure the value of it when your life touches another person.  -Daniel L.

My 20th with Jayesslee!!

It was my 20th birthday 2 days ago & I would say that I've been blessed with so so SO much this year! I just wanna thank God for EVERYTHING that He has done in my life. He has blessed me with not only the things that I need,but by His grace the things that I want. I don't usually want things for myself very badly. But this year when I heard that Janice & Sonia a.k.a Jayesslee were coming to Malaysia & the concert was on my BIRTHDAY, it was for the first time ever that I wanted to go for a concert so badly that I actually spent money to go!! LOL! Just wanna thank God for VERY supportive friends who helped me so much to win a photo contest on FB to be able to attend Jayesslee's press conference. 650++ likes in just 4 days!! Wow,you guys are just incredible! 


I went to the Curve  for Jayesslee's photograph session on the 21st,one day before the concert. I got my guitar signed by them! Woohoo! Was incredibly nervous when I saw them that I didn't know what to say. Everything went so fast I forgot to ask to take a picture until the next person came in. LOL! Well there was one thing that I realized after that night. Although I was super happy getting to meet them and getting my guitar signed, I felt some feeling of "emptiness" in my heart still. 


I realized that I felt "empty" inside because all I was merely another fan to them. I love them not just because they're talented but because they've touched my life when I was once very very spiritually & emotionally down. God used them to impact my life & got back on track with Him. However, I have not made any impact whatsoever in their lives. My life has not encouraged them not impacted them the very least. That was when I realized that I had to share my life's story with them in hopes that I can at least be a little blessing to them. I made them a card(a simple one cuz it was so last minute.LOL) & 2 strawberry lollies. I wanted to pass it to them right after the press conference but the crew there asked me to go out since I wasn't from 8tv. So,I passed them to a guy named Leonard (who didn't see me raise my hand when I wanted to ask them a question.LOL,he felt bad about it. Don't worry I forgive u.haha!!).


The concert the next day was AWESOME! They were better LIVE than they were on their videos. The bold sharing of Jesus in the concert was AMAZING too!! I was impacted in a way through their concert. TODAY, just when I woke up, I just felt a strong urge to be a BIG influence in the lives of MILLIONS. Of course I've wanted to be a speaker like Nick Vujicic & share about the HOPE that is in Jesus, but I never considered the possibility of me touching millions. Janice & Sonia's coming here to Malaysia have me decide to do the best that I can by His grace & aim to go around the WORLD sharing about His love & how He has changed my life! 


I feel a bit sad that I did not use the many chances that I had to talk to them or make an impact in their lives. Mostly because I was too shy when there were just so many people just trying to get to them. I stayed at the corner instead. But I have faith that I'm gonna meet them again next time & that time I'm gonna share my life personally with them. 

Thanks to everybody who chipped in for this lovely birthday gift! sorry can't mention all of u here cuz some of ur writings are just too "fancy" I can't read your names. LOL!! Thanks so much tho!! Love you all!!^^

Jayesslee autograph session- 21st Oct

Janice asking what guitar I'm using. Tanglewood, baby!! yeah!! ^^

Janice & Sonia's signature on my guitar!! Wooohooo!!^^

Concert day/My birthday!!- 22nd Oct 

Met some new friends. This is Joel Wong,my main competitor for a photo contest on FB by Advertlets to win Jayesslee's press conference permit!! Nice guy. Great to finally meet you in person bro! ;)

Joern, Jo Wie & Marianne,whom I met in the concert. Goods friends tho we just met!! Appreciate each one of you!!^^

Janice, with the coolest shaker in the world. XD

Sonia, with her Breedlove guitar. =)

Got another signed T-shirt on top of my bday present, thanks to the host of the night, Jin from Hitz.fm!! Wooohooo!!^^

Janice & Sonia, hope to see you both again one day! The next time, I'd love to share my life personally with the both of you. For now,I pray that you've been blessed by my sharing in the card. You've truly made my birthday the most memorable one so far. But the greatest present this year wasn't that. The greatest birthday gift that I can get this year, is to know that I have encouraged the both of you,even in the slightest way. I really do hope so you both are. Keep it up girls. Show the world that there is HOPE in Jesus Christ our LORD and SAVIOUR! Til' we meet again, jumpa lagi!! God bless =)

A special place in my heart for you =)

This post is a special dedication to TWO girls who unexpectedly made their way to a special place in my heart. These girls have been a GREAT blessing to me over and over again, even though we've just met a little over half a year. These two girls are none other than the lovely Wooi Sue Jane & Dr. June Kew Pei Ern!!! (well,not really a doctor yet..hahaXD). 


It's been almost 8 months since we met each other in National Conference last year. I wasn't that close with June & Jane during the conference. We got closer after we went back to our respective campuses actually. Despite this, the two of them never failed to encourage me & make my day better with their smiles & their words of encouragement. 


Juney is definitely a very bubbly person that never fails to cheer up the people around her; well at least me. Her blurness is sometimes a good point of hers too. Haha. Never fails to make me laugh (at her) XD. One of the things I really admire about her is her passion to know more of Jesus & of God. Her desire & thirst for Him encourages me to have a child-like faith for God that I once had. I can really see that God will use her mightily to touch the souls around her. I've learnt a lot from the sincerity in her faith & her life. 


I've kept in touch with Sue Jane more since we met up a few times before & we went to the East Asia Regional Conference together recently. She's just an amazing girl with much humility & passion to glorify the name of Jesus. She has been such a good sister to me & of course a great example of not boasting of her own strengths but glorifying His name whenever she has the chance to do so. A girl that yearns to see Him work in her life, she'll definitely touch many souls around her too. 


Why these two girls have made their way to a very SPECIAL place in my heart is because of how they have touched my heart & encouraged me through their words & the little things that they do to make me smile. Sue Jane recently made a documentary of my life for her assignment. I was really humbled that she'd ask me to do so. What really touched my heart was the personal messages that she compiled in the video to encourage me. I never expected that June would be in it,so I was really touched by both of them when I saw it. 


I have been going through a lot lately & I just find myself so depressed & down due to the challenges & the people I faced. I find myself getting easily agitated lately too. The video really touched my heart & helped me a lot through the challenges (whether they realized or not). I believe that they are two very special people that God has put in my life to walk with me in this journey that He has set out. No words could express my gratitude to Him for bringing June & Sue Jane into my life, nor could I thank them enough for what they have done to me.


So, this is just a simple way of show how much I love you two from the bottom of my heart & how you've both won a very special place in my heart. I pray that I too will be able to do the same for you two in the time to come. Thank you,really. =')

Sue Jane, the humble yet talented editor of the short documentary of my life, Limitless. A great sister & encouragement to me =)

June,the bubbly & passionate child of God! Learnt much from her sincerity of her faith in Christ. Like a little sister to me (though she's actually older..LOL!!) Isn't she SUPER DUPER cute in this picture?? XD

p/s:Continue to touch the lives of others just as you have touched mine. I am convinced that God will use you two greatly in His kingdom here on earth. So, let's run this race together,shall we? =)

God bless. 

LIMITLESS

Well,I'm NOT talking about the movie starring Bradley Cooper,though it was a really good movie.A must watch! Haha. Okay back to topic. 


A few friends of mine from HELP visited me a few times to do a documentary of my life for their assignment. Honestly,it felt a bit weird watching a 30min documentary about myself. But I think it also humbles me that I could be used this way to encourage or touch another person's life. All GLORY to GOD alone! 


It feels very VERY weird sharing this video with all of you. However, I believe the hard labor of my friends should be shared & appreciated with encouragements from others. So, please do comment on the video on my friend's blog here to encourage her to do better & use her talents for God's glory yea? Credits to Sue Jane, Lisa, Beatrice & Kenny. Love you guys so much!  ;)

Well, I hope you guys have been blessed by it. I know I did. I was really touched by the unexpected messages towards the end of the video. A very job well done on the editing by Jane =). 

Life is NOT a SNAPSHOT

There's a lot of things in life that I don't understand. Sometimes, things just happens & all of a sudden your life became more complicated than it ever was. It could be a bad result in an exam, it could be a decision you have to make about starting a new relationship, it could even be the death of a loved one. 


When my dad died from heart attack so suddenly, it seemed that there was no hope for me & my family. I wasn't a Christian back then. So,I couldn't understand why it had to happen to me. As a Buddhist back then,I thought it must be karma. It must have been something my dad or me did in our past lives to deserve such fate. Now that I know the hope that I have in Jesus, I thank Him that from something so horrible that happened to me & my family He was the only one who could make something beautiful out of it. After my dad passed away, my mum had no choice but to move to another town to work. It was from there that I came to know Jesus personally. 


Sometimes we just wonder why we have to go through the things that we just come our way without invitation. There were many times where I wondered if the pain & aimlessness will ever end. It NEVER makes God happy seeing us suffer. However, God is the only one that can make something beautiful out of the mess that we are in. All we have to do is to have faith in Him & just hang on a little longer. 


Many times, I can't see the bigger picture of God's plan for me in my life. Sometimes I don't even know where God wants me to go or what He wants me to do. But one thing's for sure. Life is NOT a SNAPSHOT. It might take some time & more snapshots, but soon enough I'll be able to see the bigger picture of His plan for me. Until then, I'll trust in my Father. 

p/s: Whatever that you may be facing right now, He has a better PLAN in store for you. Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, then it's NOT THE END YET. 

Sometimes,it takes more than one snapshot for us to realize how much He loves us.Hope you've been blessed. ;)

Don't give up!!

This post is specially dedicated to the lovely Mar Lynn, who despite what she may think, will touch the lives around her. Somehow God is just telling me that you will be used greatly by Him to impact & touch others in the time to come. So,I hope that this will encourage you & help you (even if it's just a little) to go through hard times. 

I might look like a strong person who has overcome many obstacles, but you'd be surprised at how many times I've felt like I was lost, felt like I was losing sense who I was, felt like I wasn't good enough for Him. I've lost count of how many times I've felt like giving up. 

I understand how BIG challenges can seem to be when they come our way. There are times where we find ourselves in a valley so deep we doubt we'll ever get out of it,or in a place so dark we can't see the way. Wherever you may be,JESUS will meet you there. So, don't give up!! Because you have a story to tell & you want to be heard!! If it is the weight of the world on your shoulders,Jesus will lift it for you. If it is the darkness that blinds you,Jesus will shine to guide you. If you don't have the strength to run anymore, Jesus will carry you.

Of course,we see "strong" Christians around us & they are already being used greatly by God & doing well on their own. I tend to look at myself & thought "I'll never be able to touch the lives of others as he/she does." or "I'm not doing as well in my walk with God as that person does." You know what? It's good that they're doing well. But it'll be even greater when people see ordinary people like us overcoming REAL problems: problems that everybody faces. Then they will know that our GOD is real through our lives. 

So, don't give up!!! Because you want to be heard!! I am really really confident that God has GREAT plans for you and I will definitely be praying for you. One day,you will be the one helping others overcoming problems that you once faced. You are LOVED!!! 

p/s: Hey, you don't have to go through this alone.If you need help, don't be afraid to let me know. None of us are meant to walk this journey alone y'know? ;) 

God bless =)

Little is much...

It's been 9 days now since I joined the lovely Hannah Tan as business partners in something that we believe would impact many many lives & help to save,feed,clothe & educate many underprivileged children around the world. First of all let me clarify this: I HATED BUSINESS!!! I'd never thought in a million years that I'd be involved in business. But I really believe what Hannah,Reymee & the rest of us are doing will really impact lives, help the people around us, save children all around the world & help make His gospel of love known(of course not all of them know abt this particular part...). That was the main reason why I decided to join Hannah and her team in this. So,I'm really driven to make a difference in the lives of the people around me & the lives of kids all around the world. 

Of course any cause worth fighting for will not be easy. It's getting harder for me especially now that my "coach" Hannah went overseas for work. These few days I've felt like giving up. I've felt down because the people I really really want to help think that I'm trying to gain something out of them. Others think that they have much more knowledge about business than me (which is true,but this one is not a conventional business with conventional "purposes" of gaining profit for themselves-which i really hate..) & have preconceptions & prejudgment of what it is all about. As a result I started to have doubts whether I can do it anymore. Can I really be the difference in the world & inspire others to do the same?

The next thing I know God is telling me, "Little is much when I'm in it. Just give the little that you have & I will use it to do EXTRAORDINARY things." God reminded me that He was the same God that used 80-year-old Moses to lead the people out of Egypt, the same God who was with David when he defeated Goliath & the same God that came down to save me from death by overcoming it. 

God uses the weak to do great things, the ordinary to do the EXTRAORDINARY so that I cannot boast of my own strength & people may see that there is a God that gives me the strength that I need. Little is much when God is in it. So, I will learn to trust in Him & be sensitive to His voice in my life. 

p/s: Though I have God on my side giving me strength, it really will help too if you come back earlier Hannah!! LOL!! 

My awesome coach & wonderful friend. Be safe in Korea. God bless =)

You are LOVED!!

"...Everyone wants to be understood....Everyone wants to be loved. Don't give up, because..you...are...LOVED."

"You Are Loved(Don't Give Up)"- Josh Groban 

It's been quite some time since I've encountered this feeling. The feeling that tells me that I don't belong there. The feeling that tells me that they don't want me there. To feel like a burden. Ever since I was a boy,I've been struggling with this issue. I thought that now that I've grown up, it won't hurt as much anymore. It doesn't seem the case for me.

Everyone has an innate desire to be accepted...to be understood...to be loved. It's not a good feeling at all when someone keeps hinting to you that you are not wanted there. It DEVASTATES me. Sometimes I'd think to myself, "Maybe it's better if I stop trusting people. It's better if I don't rely on others. Maybe I should stop getting too close to others. Everything would be less painful if I just give up on people." 

And that may be what you are thinking right now. It's not wrong to feel like giving up on trusting people. I just felt like that yesterday! It just mean that you and I are humans. It's normal to tend to think that way. The important thing is NOT to be convinced by it. Every time I start to convince myself that people are not trustworthy, that I am a burden, that I should give up on people, Jesus touches my heart & tells me "Don't give up. You are LOVED. Even if the whole world abandons you, I will NOT." 

So,if you are trying to convince yourself that you are unloved & to give up on trusting people, think again. JESUS is telling you now that YOU ARE LOVED. As humans we are not perfect,so me may hurt one another. But every time that I thought I should give up on trusting people,God uses the brothers & sisters around me to remind me that I am loved. I want to tell u that because Jesus loves you, I LOVE YOU too..So,don't give up...You are LOVED. 

p/s: Just wanna wish Sue Jane Happy Birthday again! I thank God for yesterday. If it wasn't for you,and Lisa & ALL the wonderful people I met yesterday, I'd still be trying to convince myself of that thought. SO, thank God for all of you...

(You haven't give me the pics frm ytd yet...so i just stole one from ur FB..hahaha!!)

It's also the birthday of a good brother of mine. Gan Kel Vin!! Happy Birthday!!! A brother that helped me a lot & never once complained. I really thank God for you. Sorry I couldn't be there this week. 

If I were to die today...

"Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever."

-Mahatma Ghandi

I wonder how would I react if I am told that I'm going to die today? Will I be glad because God is calling me home & I can finally see Him in person? Will I be scared of dying, or will I regret of the things that I have yet to do & experience? A friend of a friend of mine had a son who was diagnosed with lung cancer when he was 15. That was a year ago. A few weeks back, he died at the age of 16. He had a whole life ahead of him. Only 4 years younger than me, and he didn't get to experience that. Sometimes I think to myself, "I could be in his shoes. I could have been the one diagnosed with cancer. I could have died 4 years ago."

I guess there's a lot of things that I want to die before I die. I've always wanted to bring my family & friends to Christ, to marry the woman that I love, to have a family of my own, to go around impacting lives, to go for marathons, to dance with a girl, and the list goes on. All this reminded me that EVERYONE has an EXPIRY DATE. Some of my friends say, "No! God can't call me home yet. I'm young & still got plenty of things to do for Him." Paul urged us to "run with perseverance the race marked our for us." All of us has a race marked out for us. For some of us God marked out a short race,for some of us He marked out a full marathon. Either way, God does not wait for us to be ready to call us back. We have to get ready for His call.

I think I would have my fair share of regrets if I were to be called "home" today. I just pray that I will cherish the time He's giving me and to live a life worthy of the calling I have received. If I were to die today, I just pray that my life would have impacted YOU in some way. In the meantime, I don't want to take for granted the time that He is giving me. 

So, let us build up one another, reminding each other that we have a race marked out for us. Finding every effort to encourage & to impact lives around us,and when we finally reach the finishing line, that we too may say the words Paul said, "I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith." (2 Timothy 4:7)

FINISH THE RACE WITHOUT REGRETS.

Be blessed. =)

The Moment of Truth

"The more I look at myself, the more I feel like I don't deserve you." Those words linger in my mind sometimes. They linger whenever I've hurt you. They linger whenever someone says I'm not good enough for you. They linger whenever I think I'm only one mistake away from you leaving me. 


I sometimes lose sight of the things that matter most. I do things for you to show my love for you. Some people tell me that LOVE must be shown in ACTIONS. Some even tell me that if I love you, I'd do my best for you, to give my everything & nothing less. But there's so many times that I've done things that I'm not proud of, things that I KNOW would hurt you. Sometimes I feel that I'm just not good enough. How can somebody continue to love something that is such a disappointment over and over again?


It is during these times,however, that you whisper to me, "Go back...Go back to the moment of truth". The moment I first heard you say "I love you" & that was the time I said "I do". I've been comforted over and over again by the reminder that it is NOT by what I do that you love me so. It is not by being "good enough" that I deserved your love. It is by how much you LOVE me, and how much you would sacrifice to show that your love for me is greater than mine for you. 


So,whenever you feel that God will not love you anymore because of what you have done, well you are not alone. Most of all, be assured that His love for you NEVER changes. He loves you just the way you are, but He loves you too much to let you stay the way he found you. He has made you GOOD. So, be good! NOT to show that you are worthy of His love, but to experience the FULLNESS of His GRACE whenever you realize that you can't do it on your own. 

Go back to the time when you first held His hand & He held yours. He LOVES you back then...He LOVES you STILL....

God is calling YOUR name

"You know just how much I love you...Even if everyone leaves you, I will stand by you til' the end. I am willing to die for you." Well, at least that was what I said until they came and took you away. I fought for you at first, but I was too weak & you didn't want to see people getting hurt. You know what's worse?? When I was trying to see where they were taking you, some of the people around recognized me. I panicked. I didn't know what to do. My mouth just blurted out,"What are you talking about? I swear, I don't know such person!" Before I knew it, the rooster crowed & I remembered what you said. All I could do was to weep as I regretted denying the very person I loved. I've let you down, Lord. Will you forgive me?


Simon Peter is probably one of the most memorable for me among all of Jesus' disciples. But because of his denial of Jesus, Peter used to be the 2nd last person I'd want to be among Jesus' disciples; Judas Iscariot being the last person I'd wanna be. However, I find myself being able to identify with Peter most of the time. There were so many times that I felt that I've betrayed His love and forgiveness that He so freely gave to me. I sing that I love Him and that I'll offer my life to Him, but there's just so many times that I feel that I've failed Him. How can He still love me after all these?? I've let You down too many times, God.

It just amazes me how long it took for me to realize that in this RELATIONSHIP, He is the one holding me up, and He NEVER LETS ME DOWN. There's no way I could let Him down if I've never once held Him up. 


When Jesus resurrected, the angels of the Lord told Mary and Mary Magdalene "He has risen! He is not here. See the place where they laid him. But go, tell his disciples and Peter, 'He is going ahead of you into Galilee. There you will see him, just as he told you.' " (Mark 16: 7) The angel said, "..tell his disciples and Peter." 


"..his disciples and PETER." 


Just when Peter thought that he's blown it. Just when he thought Jesus will never forgive him for what he's done, God mentioned his name. God mentioned Peter by name to let him know that He still cares for him & that He's forgiven him. 

So whenever you think that you've blown the chance that Jesus has given you, think again. God is calling your name, to let you know that He still LOVES you & He forgives you. Remember, He is the one holding you up, not the other way around. We can never let Him down. cause we can't! He never lets us down.