My Tumblr

Well, I've just got a Tumblr account. It's something like a blog but...different. Don't really know what it is, not too familiar with it. This blog is mainly created so that I can be an encouragement to others, hence you seldom see me post something too depressing or much details about myself or my life. So, the Tumblr account is a place for me to express myself a little bit more. It feels a bit hard bottling up myself too much sometimes.

Every post I wrote in this Blogspot has a story behind it. Just because I encouraged & reassured that God's faithfulness will bring us through our troubles, doesn't mean that I don't feel down at times too. Thus,the Tumblr is created 1st so that I can sorta post what I feel or think of & 2nd, to let you all know that I'm human too. So, here's the link (for those who cares to read this post).

http://endless-rhythm.tumblr.com/

Spring Is Coming...

Have you ever felt that you are in a situation so hopeless and you can't understand why it's happening to you? Or ever felt a pain that felt so deep that you think "It can't get any worse than this." and yet it happens again & again? I've been through that ever since my childhood years. This is not something for me to brag, rather a testimony to let everyone know that YOU are NOT alone in facing hardships.

I've experienced lots of different kinds of PAIN in my life. Physical pain, emotional pain, rejection, isolation, worthlessness,etc. Well, I do still experience some of that now. The point is, we all face "winters" in our lives. Winters where the plants die & the coldness just haunts me; a period where everything seems so painful and hopeless. I don't understand why it happens to me all the time. But one thing I DO know is that when all the ice melts and when I can feel the warmth of the sun on my skin again, I have HOPE that SPRING IS COMING.

Pain doesn't last forever. Be hopeful that while we are facing WINTER now, SPRING is coming very SOON. So, hold on a little more longer. Know that you are not facing this alone, flowers will bloom soon and we'll see spring come TOGETHER.

God bless,

-DaNiEL-

Better to get hurt, than to lose TRUST

Well, one of the weaknesses I've always had was being attached to people, especially people that I trust. I've always scared people away when I was younger when I get to know a friend more, cause I would always want to spend time with the person when I slowly mislead myself into believing that the person cares about me. So, I think I kinda don't have any close friends in my life,ever. I would always scare people away or make people think I'm super annoying. Well, I kinda still do that now, though it's not as bad.

People would always think that I'm strong when they see me for the 1st few times, but when I get closer with the person I tend to become vulnerable, showing my weak side. So, I guess with guy friends, they would find it annoying while female friends would think that I like them or sth. It kinda hurts a LOT when that happen; ALL THE TIME. Sometimes, thoughts of never ever getting close with another person crosses my mind. It feels better that way I guess; the thought of not getting close thus not getting hurt.

Why do I keep trusting people then? Why not just lose faith in people? Well, I think it's better to get hurt than to lose trust in people. I BELIEVE somewhere out there, there would be a true friend that will accept me for who I am. There's one thing I know though, that is to learn to be STRONGER so that I wouldn't need to rely on others. To be a source of strength, not the other way around.

P.S: Wen Lin, you are one of the very few true friends that I have, accepting me for who I am, being there for me when I need someone to understand. I hope I too can become a friend like that to you & to others one day:) That's why I will ALWAYS cherish you from the depths of my heart, thanking God for blessing me with a great sister like you.

First Things FIRST

WOW!!! It has been a tiring & hectic week for me. Wasn't really sleeping well & didn't really get enough rest from all the assignments to complete but just really wanna praise God for all the thing's I've been through this week! Though it was a hectic week, it was just so AMAZING spending time with HIM and really experiencing meaningful quiet time of devotion & reflection.

I was troubled by something for the past few days (well, I still am...sorta...) & I didn't really know what to do, & I had no one to talk about it with =(. I was praying before doing my devotion & asked God to help me through this & as I opened the devotional material, guess what popped out?

The passage for the day touched on Matthew 6:25-34. Verse 33 really spoke to me. "Seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well." (Matthew 6:33)

I was worrying about something that I can't control, only to find out it was all in vain. I don't know what is going to happen nor I know whether things will go the way I would like it to be. I do have to admit that this kinda shifted my perspective on what is important for a while (which was not good...) but God was gracious & reminded me of what I should seek FIRST: His KINGDOM & His RIGHTEOUSNESS, instead of putting Him second to my worries.

This week was really an AWESOME time reflecting & meditating on His word. Though I am still slightly troubled by it, I am really touched to be reminded of God's FAITHFULNESS & that HE is always hearing me. I will focus on what He has set me to do, with pure intentions & surely He will be FAITHFUL in His promise to me. First things FIRST, is what matters most.

Never lose sight of what is FIRST in life.

Keep Holding On...

What should I do now that I REALLY wanna give up? Really wanna quit, raise the white flag, throw the towel. "Don't give up! Try harder!", that's probably what I would say to a friend, but when it comes to myself now, it feels kinda different. Sounds HYPOCRITICAL, do I not?

The song "Keep Holding On" by Avril Lavigne just popped into mind. Though I'm don't fancy her, this particular song is meanigful. "You're not alone...Together we stand...I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand..." Kinda wish that will happen to me too *fakes smile*. Well, for now I'll just have to strive harder, I guess. Never give in...Keep holding on...

I'll still have YOU, don't I, God? I know you will strengthen me till the end.

A Little "Push" Along the Way

I was just sitting around & a thought just came to me which really made me wanna post this up as a token of GRATITUDE to the people God has put in my life.

I just really wanna thank God for putting many WONDERFUL people in my life who had made great impact in me & in my walk with Him. I've come to realize that God has and will always put people in my life to give me a little "push" when I feel as if I can't go any further. Recent incidents of how a friend encouraged me instead when I was initially intending to encourage the person in the first place (Really thank you for that...), really made me realize that help may come from unexpected people and places.
There are so many more people people that God has put in my life to help me when I was down, so many that sometimes I might no even realize it. In the same way, I really pray that I too can be that little "push" that would help a friend who's in need of encouragement, a lost soul who just wants comfort or even a college guard who's in need of a smile :). Thank YOU, Lord!

We may need a little "push" along the way sometimes,

and it may come from places we least expect it.

YOU are N.O.T. (No Ordinary Thing)

Why does it rain like this?

As though as You know what I'm going through?

Each drop of rain

as if it is from my heart.

Just as the rain and the snow come down from heaven

and do not return to it without watering the soil

And just as Your WORD that goes out from Your mouth

and does not return to You empty

So will be my tears that I shed

do not return to me without "watering" the SOULS around me.

I am NOTHING,

but certainly NOT WORTHLESS

HELPLESS,

but certainly NOT USELESS.

Though I may feel that way sometimes,

my worth is in YOU all the time.

With Your strength, I will rise again

and together with the people You put in my life along the way

I shall WALK with YOU till the end of age.

-Daniel L.-

I thank God for every "rain" & "storm" in my life cause I know that it'll make me STRONGER. Through every hardship in my journey, I'll learn to encourage people along the way; letting my life be used for His GLORY.

P.S: It's NOT true that you can't do anything right at all. Yes, YOU. You are NOT useless, nor are you an idiot, a fool, or even a failure. You are N.O.T. (No Ordinary Thing) So,stay strong & never lose faith, for HE is with you all the way.