The Power of WORDS

Teasing, gossiping, bad-mouthing a person, and any other forms of verbal bullying or abuse. All these things- how can I not understand it perfectly well on how words can be so destructive to a person? Ever since I was young, I've been hurt over & over again for things that people say about me behind my back, and also in front of me. I can still remember how when I was younger (probably 7 or so), my family & I went out for dinner & a very young girl (younger than me at the time) was laughing at me, saying how weird my legs looked & that I needed to be carried around by my mother. My dad comforted me saying words from people like that don't matter. All I needed to know was that he & my mother loved me. Still, deep inside those words hurt me enough for me to remember it till this day. 


Too often throughout my years as a primary & secondary student, there were "friends" who said things behind my back that pierces my heart. Many actually laughed at me & some boldly teased me as "cacat" (disabled) in the class. Looking back, I thank God that He gave me such loving parents so that I wouldn't even contemplate on suicide. But really, it hurts.


Now that I'm 20 and as I looked back on all the things that I've been through, I am ashamed to say that I've hurt many many people with my very own words. I've teased people too, and I've said things that hurt people just as how those "friends" hurt me when I was younger. As I trace back my memories of how I've come to be this person that I see in the mirror everyday, I realized that I wasn't like this all my life. As I was physically incapable of defending myself from the things people say about me, I realized that I was good at defending myself verbally. As I honed this "skill" I had, I realized that it was very easy for me to get revenge by teasing the people that teased me in the first place. 


Over the years it became a habit & before I realized it, sarcasm & hurtful words come very naturally to me. I'm awake now at 5.16 a.m. contemplating on this. I can't sleep knowing the damage that my every words has done to the people around me without me realizing it. And so,I prayed & made a covenant with Him and as I pray, I felt very burdened to write this. I want to speak for God & to share His Good News to everyone in the world. I won't want to just "speak well" & get praises while my very life is a contradiction to what I preach. 


I don't want to only "practice what I preach" but more importantly "preach what I practice". I can't do this without His very own WORD. All this while,the words spoken that hurt the people around me are not His words,but MINE. So I'm asking anyone whom I've heard over the past 2 decades of my existence to forgive me for what I've said & done for I was ignorant. I want to learn to LOVE and be able to say "I LOVE YOU" to everyone I meet, regardless what they have done & their past. 

"The power of one word can destroy a person but the Word of God gives LIFE to whoever who hears it. I must no longer live like the Word of God isn't in my life." - Daniel L.

The Moment of Truth

"The more I look at myself, the more I feel like I don't deserve you." Those words linger in my mind sometimes. They linger whenever I've hurt you. They linger whenever someone says I'm not good enough for you. They linger whenever I think I'm only one mistake away from you leaving me. 


I sometimes lose sight of the things that matter most. I do things for you to show my love for you. Some people tell me that LOVE must be shown in ACTIONS. Some even tell me that if I love you, I'd do my best for you, to give my everything & nothing less. But there's so many times that I've done things that I'm not proud of, things that I KNOW would hurt you. Sometimes I feel that I'm just not good enough. How can somebody continue to love something that is such a disappointment over and over again?


It is during these times,however, that you whisper to me, "Go back...Go back to the moment of truth". The moment I first heard you say "I love you" & that was the time I said "I do". I've been comforted over and over again by the reminder that it is NOT by what I do that you love me so. It is not by being "good enough" that I deserved your love. It is by how much you LOVE me, and how much you would sacrifice to show that your love for me is greater than mine for you. 


So,whenever you feel that God will not love you anymore because of what you have done, well you are not alone. Most of all, be assured that His love for you NEVER changes. He loves you just the way you are, but He loves you too much to let you stay the way he found you. He has made you GOOD. So, be good! NOT to show that you are worthy of His love, but to experience the FULLNESS of His GRACE whenever you realize that you can't do it on your own. 

Go back to the time when you first held His hand & He held yours. He LOVES you back then...He LOVES you STILL....

BREAK me...Mould me...

"Lord,please BREAK me & MOULD me into the person that you intend me to be." That is the prayer of many Christians as well as mine. Well, in my case the statement can be quite literal at times.

I fell down from my chair yesterday(Wednesday) & landed right on my butt. Since I don't have much "meat" there, my tail bone (coccyx) got the full impact. I ended up breaking it. Man, it's been a while since I've really broken a bone, and I sure don't enjoy it one bit. I called an ambulance & was discharged a few hours later. Apparently, the only thing I can do if I break my coccyx is to let it be & wait for it to heal. But I really thank God that I didn't need any surgery or something like that. 

For all the times that God has "broken" me (both literally & also in spiritual sense), I really do hope that I will learn to be moulded by Him more and more each time. I pray that even in my pain; not just physically but in every aspect of life; I can give out a ray of light that is called HOPE. One of the nurses there yesterday said to her colleague that I was very strong-willed & filled with fighting spirit. I really do wish that she would be able to see more than that. To see that the HOPE that I have, and the STRENGTH that I show does not come from me, but from my Heavenly Father who is always there for me. 

I really thank God for allowing that to happen to me. It reminded me of how God intend to use my life as a testimony of His grace, mercy & LOVE. Praise Him also that I felt much better this morning. I couldn't even sit the night before but it was amazing how I was able to sit today and move around more freely (though much slower). So, I do pray that He will continue break & mould me into a person and a TESTIMONY of His GREATNESS. Hopefully He doesn't do it LITERALLY. 

P.S: Also, thank you all who were very concerned about my condition. Sorry to scare you all. I really do appreciate each one of you. 

God bless. =)

Is There MORE to LIFE Than This??

"Life's too short to be spent on worrying". This statement is very true. Life's too short to be spent worrying everyday about everything. However, I also think that life's too short to be spent NOT KNOWING about ETERNITY. 


We're all born in this world. We eat. We sleep. We study then as we grow up, we'll go into the working world. Some of us get married,grow old, then we'll one day DIE. Is there more to life than this?  We all end up DEAD in the end. Full stop, end of story. Or is it? 


When I start to look of how magnificently this whole universe is made & how marvelous the creation of human beings and the rest of the living creatures here on Earth, I wondered whether there is a MAKER of all these wonderful things. As I searched for the truth, I've concluded that there MUST be a MAKER & a GOD that created all these. This thought came to me NOT when I was a Christian, but when I was a Buddhist (the main reason why I'm no longer a Buddhist now). 


I searched more into this so called "Jesus Christ" at that time & I later on concluded that this is the TRUTH, the WAY & the LIFE (I don't have to explain how I came to that conclusion,at least not now...). The point of all this is when we take time to look at things other than ourselves, and learn to look to the CREATOR of the heaven & earth, we will be able to see that LIFE is much much more than what we are experiencing now in the world. There IS more to LIFE than this!! He has given me ETERNAL LIFE & a REASON for me to live. A reason like none other; that goes beyond this lifetime. 


I can say all I want about how you need Jesus in your lives & how you must believe in Jesus, but that wouldn't make much  a difference. I just ask of you to look at all the things in this world, and ask yourselves"Is there more to life than this?" When you search for God, He will be found by you. The decision is fully yours to make. 


God bless;)

YOU are worth....EVERYTHING!!!

Have you ever felt like a NOBODY?? Well,I don't know about you but I feel that way A LOT when I was growing up. It is still something that I'm struggling from time to time up until now. That feeling that you are not really worth anything to anyone. That you'd just die & nobody would care or feel any loss. The feeling of WORTHLESSNESS. Many times I've wondered if anyone would remember me at all if I just "disappeared" one day. Memories of nobody, without someone to miss me at all. Well, however UNTRUE that is, I still felt it many times in my life & I believe that many people out there feel this way too (maybe in different ways/degrees). Don't feel too depressed though. This is not an "emo" post.

Growing up,I've "convinced" myself too many time that I'm worthless & many times I've let others make me feel unworthy. I'm pretty sure some of you can relate to that.The TRUTH however, is very far from what I've always felt about myself. I am fearfully & wonderfully made. His works are beautiful & I know that full well (Psalm 139: 14).

Now that I know that "full well" & remember that I am made in His own image, I must not let myself believe that I'm worth nothing to anyone because I know that I'm worth EVERYTHING to HIM. This is how Satan gains a foothold in many Christians' lives. He(satan) knows that he can't take away our SALVATION, so he tries his best to make us feel that we are less than what we are actually worth.So, don't give in to that thought!! I'd still feel that at times & that is when I need Jesus the most to remind me the price that He paid for ME at the cross. Then, I'll really see how much I'm WORTH to HIM!!! (Besides, I'm worth something to the people around me too...)

Don't listen to those who make who feel LESS that what you're really worth...You're WORTH EVERYTHING!!!

Be blessed;)

-DaNiEL-